Letters from me, to me

Dear 7 year old me,

I know that right now, you are living in a far more simpler time than I am; as of the moment, I’m pretty sure you’re probably watching Nickelodeon getting a kick out of Spongebob Squarepants and the like. And I should tell you, really that you should savor those moments, it’s going to be a tough ride getting older, but that’s okay.

I just want you to know that you’re not going to be the popstar that you’ve always wanted to be. Britney Spears is bad person, and I don’t know why you idolized her so much, but don’t fret, there are better role models out there for you, like your mom, and your older brother, and your dad.

Just like you savoring each episode of the Winx club, I want to tell you that you should savor the moments that you have with your family, especially your Dad. Always find find the time to tell him “I love You” everyday. I know that you’re a Daddy’s girl, and I’m going to tell you right now that he’s going to be your bestest friend ever. But he won’t last long, and when that time comes, I hope you get to understand why he left us in this world.

When he leaves, promise me that you should be strong for those people who are affected by that loss. Especially you mom. She might not have been the best for you when you were younger, but that’s okay. Both of you will get by. You’ve always been that adept to change. Your brothers will also be there to help you, it not the other way around. You’re one of the strongest foundations of the family, and I pray that you lose the hope, and lose the love that you have for them. We all need each other to get by. You’re not alone in all your pain and suffering.

You’ll be meeting a lot people, and you’ll be losing a lot of them too. But that’s okay, it’s part of life. You can’t always control everything, or get what you want (and this is something that we both know very well), and that’s also okay. What matters what you have now, and what you can do with it.

I wish you all the best,

Crystal Arcega (19 yrs old)

Dear 32 year old me,

Hi, self, it’s been 13 years. I hope right now as I’m writing, you are hopefully in a happier disposition than I am right now. (If you’re not, it’s all okay, not all plans go smoothly anyway).

I have so many questions for you but probably if I asked them, I would sound like a total *ssh*le to you. But eitherway you have to faced these questions from other people, so: Are you married? Did you actually pursue Law School? If not, Did you get the job you wanted? Or are you starting again from scratch?

Eitherway, I just want you to know that whatever place you are in right now, I’m very proud of you. I’m very proud that you have gotten this far in life, and that you still manage to keep whatever you have in the past 13 years alive today. I know that times are going to be much harder after college, heck as I’m writing to you right now, I’m more confused as I am than you are now. Hopefully once you see this letter, and you go back and remember me, you’re a more improved person with a better sense of direction. (both literally and metaphorically; I still get lost sometimes).

If there one thing I specifically hope for for you is that I hope that you still keep in touch with your siblings and your mom. Right now, they are really important to me, and I hope that they are still important people to you. Please keep close, and always remember why you are here in this life. We’re all not here for too long, and time is always of the essence when you’re with your loved ones.

All the best,

19 year old self

Even me, who’s like a lonely island can I shine on the outside: https://tonimbaltazar.wordpress.com/2017/05/08/even-me-whos-like-a-lonely-island-can-i-shine-on-the-outside/comment-page-1/#comment-6
Hayao Miyazaki: The Simplistically Complex Creatorhttps://thehopelesslypink.blogspot.com/2017/05/hayao-miyazaki-simplistically-complex.html?showComment=1494660599301#c1029244502007900383


Creative People: A capella and Pentatonix

Hello everyone! So, today I will be talking about the people who I think are considered as a creative person. Today, I will be talking about Pentatonix.

Who are Pentatonix?

Pentatonix is an acapella group is a five-member American a cappella group from Arlington, Texas consisting of vocalists Scott Hoying, Mitch Grassi, Kirstin Maldonado, Avi Kaplan, and Kevin Olusola. They are famous for arranging acapella version of various Pop songs. They first started out from a group of friends tauditioning in aradio show to try and meet the cast of Glee and as of the moment, they are in a contract with Sony Pictures, and are 13th most subscribed channel on Youtube.

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Why are they creative?

For me, Pentatonix are creative people because they managed to “rebrand” acapella music by using previous knowledge of music theory in creating innovative covers of various Pop Songs and Classical throughout the years that they have been working. As Acapella music before is associated with “boring and old music” (i.e. Gregorian Chants and Barbershop Quartets, etc.), I do believe that Pentatonix became a driving force for people to enter the world of a new kind of music that’s not conventional. Being a person who is part of the “Choir” scene, I really do appreciate the efforts that they make in their music, and creating a contemporary approach on this kind of field really leads to a new perspective on what good music can be defined.

Aside from this, because Pentatonix uses various music theories in creating their work, there is beauty and substance in it and it invites people to learn about how this kind of music is made.




I’ve always wanted to do something like this ever since I stumbled upon the Meme on Tumblr a few years ago.

The rules are pretty simple. Take a old drawing that you made X years ago and try to draw it again.

It was hard for me to salvage a good picture for my art, because most of my old art was stowed away in the old family computer. Out of all that I managed to find, though, this was the one that I believed would have been best to use for the Meme.

White Rabbit 2012 (left) and White Rabbit 2017 (right) respectively

In a way, it was easy for me to conceptualize what the new drawing would be like, because I still remember the theme that I tried doing 5 years ago: An Alice in Wonderland-Themed Card. The character I drew 5 years ago was my take on the White Rabbit (If you cannot tell).

I did a lot of comparisons as I drew, such as me being able to capture his emotions, the color schemes and the lineart are significantly different. It amazed me that now, I can capture him better with my current skills as an artist due to all the practice that I had throughout the years. Though despite of all this, I can still see that it is the same character that I have thought 5 years ago. It’s as if the his essence as to why I drew him was still there, and that I am proud enough to say that I have now encapsulated what it is now in this current time.

Peter-Herald-Hopkin-2k17Step by step process for White Rabbit 2017 picture

To be honest, I’m not really that confident with how I draw especially since I know that there are better artists than me out there (and that I havent’t been able to draw for kicks for so long), but I’m very glad to be able to show this to the world, right now, at this moment.

Me being able to draw this is kind of my way to entertain myself on the big what-if I had in my life: which was to go into an art school and learn Animation (or something of the sort). Before I applied to my current course, I was thinking really hard if taking a fine arts course would be worth it. I rationalized enough that drawing was just a hobby for me and that if I took it up as a job, I would not have enjoyed it as much as I thought because the workload it had did not give enough payback for what it’s worth. (Don’t get me wrong because right now I am actually okay withmy course, quite interested in it even I’m looking forward to where it can take me)

Seeing the difference between the 2 drawings made me realize that just like them, I have changed a lot during the last 5 years. It was, in a way a kind of internal reflection for me as I drew because I knew that I was not the person I was 5 years ago as I was now. The new designs and the new style was a reflection of my growth, not just as a artist, but also as a person.

Bonus: Check out the Video below about my Log for my Walk the Edge project!

We’re all in this Together: Reflections for COM 14’s Group Project

On March 20 2017, our COM 14 Class Flagship Project finally took place. A lot of memorable things happened before, during, and after the event.

The Pre-event

During the pre-event, many of the groups tied to make posters and facebook pages in order to increase the chances of people arriving in our event. For our group, we had to post on our facebook profiles, or send out our posters to our friends and orgmates personally through messages. For me, it felt as if we were in a competition of some sorts, in which each group had to find the most efficient way to get more likes, and exposure for the event.

Though it kind of felt like a contest, We tried helping each other out during the day of the event itself. For example, our group helped another’s by helping them set up their stalls and help in fixing their freebies (i.e. cutting stickers and invitations, etc., helping out in getting the chairs and tables from storage) We all can feel that we were pretty nervous and excited for the event, because it was something that we have been planning for weeks.

The Event Proper

I learned that in order for you to succeed in these kinds of events, you need to have a lot of connections. Because many of my groupmates were really close with their friends/org mates, we manage to garner a lot of people in our booths and also brought hype that was really needed for the event. Because ours was a fun and interactive Chinese booth that had a quick game (more like a raffle), our booth managed to reach the Quota because they also brought in their own sets of friends to experience what we had in store during that time. Aside from having a lot of connections, we also needed to be brave and ask strangers to participate ni our booths. This tactic was very helpful during the peak hours of the event when many people would pass by our booth. Because we kept on insisting that they join and participate, they became interested in our event.

Though it was a good experience for our group to reach quota, for others, they had a hard time with garnering people for their booths. Because we all promised ourselves that we would help each other out, it was a duty to help those in need. Whenever there people who would drop by our booths, we would tell them to go to the ones that are in need to reach quota. The booths that we personally helped were the booths who were excited with the event the most. For me, it was only right for us to help them, because their efforts should not have been gone to waste. Thankfully enough, because of each other’s help, all groups managed to reach quota.


After the event, we all felt glad that it was over. As we cleaned the area, we would always recall and commend what our colleagues did. We experienced a lot of good and bad things during the course of the event, but what mattered in the end was that no one was left behind, and that we all put each other’s needs first, because in our heads, it was a class effort to finish the project with 100% success.

Mad Hatters and Me: The Six Thinking Hats

Do you know the scene in Alice in Wonderland where Alice meets the Mad Hatter and they have this wild tea party where everyone didn’t make any sense but at some point it was all okay in the end?

Well, that was what happened when we did one of the creative Exercises in our COM class, the Six Thinking Hats.

As a group activity, My groupmates and I had to reconcile which approved group concept paper to take for our upcoming Flagship Project in our COM class. It was very hard at first because we had to follow the format of the Six Thinking Hat system, so we all had to take turns every now and then, and not to jump to one hat to the next without everyone else finishing the previous one first, else everyone would be all over the place, and we wouldn’t understand each other at all.

We faced a similar problem also after we decided on what kind of booth we were going to pick, as we tended to stray off topic from what we were supposed to do. It was a good thing that one of us took track on where we were in the activity, especially when we were making the booth plan for the event. I was one of the people who drew the booth plan, so I really needed to listen to what the whole group wanted to execute. I was very grateful for one of my groupmates who took charge in keeping us all i the right track.


I had a lot of fun though, despite everything! It was an opportunity for me to try my hand at making floorplans and designs for an event (something that I have never really done), so it was a good experience.

Money Sucks [And we all know it]: A Brief Reflection on Mind Mapping

I never really thought about anything concrete with what I was going to do with my life after graduating college. After doing the mind mapping activity in my COM class, I realized: how much I suck at planning for the future.

Please don’t get me wrong, I have, at least, a **very** abstract outline for what I want in life: Get to Law School, Get the Job, Help my family, etc. etc. The typical Razzle Dazzle. But it was really hard for me to make the whole thing concrete. I was never a detail-oriented person in the first place, so the activity really made me think. A lot. And by a lot I mean I had a lot of questions, like:

“How much money should I make for this event to happen?”

“How long will I manage to get the money?”

“HOW will I get the money?”


If you’re my friend and that you know me very well, I hate talking about money. Let alone think about it. It’s not because I’m stingy, but rather because I really find it as a limiting factor for a lot of people. It’s very stressful for me to think that there are so many people, good people, who are doing their best in their jobs and yet they don’t get the pay that they deserve. I didn’t really like how this activity provoked me with that thought, but it pays to be aware of these things, at the very least.

Which leads me in going to compare my mind map with the other people in the class. We all have different goals, but they are similar either way; it’s a fact that we are all aware that money is a big factor in getting the things that we want, and that a lot of us will sacrifice a lot of things in order to get them. Some people will have to hustle in the working environment as soon as they graduate; some would marry older men/women, and some have chosen a course that they didn’t want in order to get the pay that they need just so they can achieve what they want.

The process in gaining the money that we need in the mind map we made is long and hard, but, for me,  it doesn’t have to be a process that would make you regret for the rest of your life. There are other ways. It might take longer, and maybe 10x harder, but no one has to sacrifice his own being in order to get what he **wants**.